Cowboyvon wrote:
David I decided to start broadcasting a live through this winter on Monday nights.. its a way of answering some questions and getting to know the people that watch my videos regular and get their ideas... If you ever get a new computer and have a good connection heck I could have you come on live with me
lol .. Let me know how many book orders it would take to get them printed up again .. I will mention on the channel ..
Yes I did read your post. And sorry for not responding. I am Just wishing I had a positive response, I guess. And I couldn’t come up with one. Now I am cornered. Lol. So here goes:
I don’t have any plans for buying a new computer, although it could happen. But then I would have to learn how to use it.
I don’t have a good connection. My only internet connection comes from my phone, and that doesn’t seem to be working out lately. I have tried uploading two videos and together it was 37 hours of tying up my phone and my freedom trying to get them uploaded to YouTube. I don’t know how to fix things, and if I did I am not sure I would spend the money.
And it seemed in some ways my life might have been more like what it was meant to be during the 45 days in the wilderness last summer when I had no phone signal at all.
Next, I don’t speak well spontaneously. I speak slowly, hesitate and stammer and it might be the worst thing you ever did for your show to have me on there.
Also, I am not a Houndsman. I am just a guy who used hounds and curs a whole lot to help me hunt. You should get a Houndsman or horseman on there. I rode horses a lot as a kid but probably wouldn’t have even known what a bridle was if someone had asked me. I knew what a saddle was but never used one unless some adult was involved, which was almost never. And usually there was three of us on the same horse so a saddle probably would have been uncomfortable for somebody.
Actually, one of my childhood memories was stealing a leather halter. It was just laying there so I figured they must not care about it. Well turns out they did care about it, and I was in big trouble. But I am doubting that qualifies me for an interesting cowboy interview.
The book. I don’t know. We probably have enough negativity above without me starting in on issues with the book. Something would have to change the way I feel about it though. That sure could happen, and I keep thinking it will, but it hasn’t happened yet.
I was hoping the readings on YouTube would help a few folks. If I could get them only to people who are grateful, I would do more. But I am largely frustrated with trying to help people find some kind of identity in cats or hounds when we need to find our identity in the One who made them. Some of the people seem largely ungrateful and feel somehow entitled. I’m not sure how. Some are jealous of people I have featured, and a few are even dumb enough to expose their jealousy. Most are smarter than that, but no less motivated by the same sentiments.
If I could find a way to share with those who do justice, love kindness, and walk humbly with the Father, I would. Because I know they can keep it in perspective and not be hurt by it, and not hurt others by it. Mostly what I have seen is men, women, sons and daughters hurt by bobcat hunting with hounds. It requires SO MUCH, and gives back so little.
And some men seem so strongly tempted with shortcuts that amount to wrong thinking and wrong doing. And my role becomes the one grooming victims of the predators out there selling “bobcat dogs”. Every time I encounter these victims it rips my guts out. I have yet to find one man who actually caught a cat when they went to try the dogs out. And they still buy them. (I am not saying that everyone who sells bobcat dogs is a predator, I’m saying there are predators out there without a conscience who also sell “bobcat dogs”, and, I’m helping them do it with no way to stop it).
The fact is, most of us don’t have the resources it takes to remain a full fledged bobcat hunter.
The only argument that almost makes sense is “better hurt by this than hurt by something even more destructive.” But it is not a very motivational argument for me right now.
So it humbles me Brett, that you would invite me like that. I mean, I am blown away by your kindness in offering. But I don’t think I have much to offer your listeners. I think you are very gifted at what you are doing. And hope you continue to find encouragement in all you do. My dad sometimes told me I was born 100 years too late also, so I hear his voice every time I see your channnel.
